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Let’s Go for a Walk!

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Hi friends, my name is Miriam, and I’m from the mountains of North Carolina. I’m a rising senior at Davidson College where my major is Language and Migration Studies. I’ve been working as an intern at Abara for the past six weeks. I’d love to take you for a walk through a couple of the moments I’ve witnessed and experienced this summer.

As part of my work here, I volunteer weekly at a short-term shelter in El Paso. Because families usually only stay for a couple of days before they continue to their final destination, each week I get to meet and spend time with a new group of guests. I go in the evening and help to tidy up, organize spaces, and once I’ve finished, I hang out with the families, which is my favorite part of volunteering. At first I was worried that being in the environment of the shelter would wear me out, but every time I go I leave refreshed and hopeful, which is no doubt because of the people I come across.

I play basketball with the kids as the cement burns our feet and the sun slowly lowers into the evening. I draw all of the flags from Latin America with a girl from Venezuela. I talk with a teenager about what it will be like to learn English. One Venezuelan boy tells me about his perception of each nationality he came across on the journey. I listen to the love story of a couple who met in Ciudad de Mexico and later left because of violence. I try to locate a woman’s husband who was separated from her while they were in ICE custody. I hear about what it’s like to be in the ICE detention center for days or weeks, where they don’t turn the lights off. A mother shares that her relationship with her husband has been strengthened by the year they spent apart, and he has been staying up late to prepare his house to be with his family again. I explain to a woman’s son how to navigate their layover and find their gate in the busiest airport in the US. I share excitement with a young mother who will get to see her husband for the first time in two years, another mother who will see her daughter for the first time in four years. The air is filled with both a sense of relief from the journey and an nervousness about the future.

The first month that I volunteered at the shelter, I served alongside a short-term volunteer. We’ll call him Peter. Peter had his own immigration story from Asia. He spoke Spanish, English, and Indonesian, and on my first day, he asked me to help him teach some of the guests basic English. Peter was in his sixties and wore plaid shirts, khakis, brooks running shoes, and occasionally his bike helmet to protect him from the sun. Peter brought energy and warmth to our space and made me along with all of the guests feel welcomed. Basically, everyone loved Peter, me included.

To begin my first meal with everyone, Peter prayed in Indonesian and then asked me to pray in Spanish. We were a small group so we all fit in one table. At one point during the meal, Peter shared that he likes to go for walks in the evening and asked if anyone wanted to join him after dinner. “Peter, we just walked all the way through Mexico!!” was the response he got. We all laughed.

The next week, I served on an evening shift alongside Peter again. There were about thirty guests in the shelter that day, and after dinner, Peter invited everyone to go on a walk with him over the speakers in the shelter. At first, I thought only a few would be joining us because everyone was relaxing on their beds after dinner. Then, one of the workers at the shelter emphasized that anyone who leaves the premises must carry all of their paperwork. After being processed by government agencies, migrants are handed a stack of papers that contains proof of their legal status in the US. The bags are almost like tiny plastic briefcases. At this point, I was sure that no one would join us and lug around their papers. I was very wrong. Four families grabbed their bags of paper and proceeded out of the fence with us to take a lap around the shelter.

As we walked, I learned that for some of them, this was their first time ever walking “freely” in the United States. We cornered the building and looked over I-10 to see the sun setting behind the mountain in Ciudad Juarez that reads “LA BIBLIA ES LA VERDAD. LEELA.” (Or “The Bible is the truth. Read it.”) When I pointed out that Mexico was only about a couple hundred yards away, some of the guests expressed their relief that they would not have to make the journey through Mexico again. The mountains reminded one woman about her experience crossing the mountains of the Darien Gap. She told stories of monkeys and waterfalls. She thought that the rainforest was beautiful, but regretted that she didn’t have the chance to truly enjoy it because of her situation. When we made it back to the gate, Peter offered to take another lap, and we agreed. One woman was worried she wouldn’t be able to walk very long with the tracking anklet that ICE placed on her. We cornered the building again and saw a train passing by. One father with his young daughter said that it was just like the cargo train that he rode north, and he asked if it could be the same one. We took another lap and returned just as the sun had gone down.

As I left the gates of the shelter that day, I couldn’t help but feel emotional. This walk made me think about the walks I took growing up, walks to elementary school in the morning, walks with my dogs and siblings, walks with my grandmother during the pandemic. During my childhood, I never thought about needing to have identification on me when I walked out of my house. I was never scared that someone would ask where I’m from or question my legal status. Even throughout my various travels, this fear was never on my mind. I’ve always felt a right to exist in the space I’m in; for the guests at the shelter, the very act of stepping outside could put them in danger of losing that right. After months of hiding and flying under the radar, the families confidently carried their tiny briefcases, containing their right to exist, to take up space, to be outside and go for a walk. That’s what made this walk so beautiful. While they will still face the legal battle of seeking asylum and will not be free of discrimination and xenophobia in the US, for this one evening, I got to walk alongside them, enjoy conversation, and watch the sun setting behind the Sierra de Juárez mountains.

Reflection by Miriam Smith, Abara Intern